Workin Wo-man!!

So I have been working a little over a week now. It isn't that bad. It gives me something to do. All I do is sit in my cubicle and make phone calls all day. I've got it down. It just gives me a headache is all. I don't have to get up super early. I don't get home that late. It's only 15 minutes away. It's a bum kind of job lol I think I like it. I get paid so really I can't complain. Working though makes me boring though. I'm tired more too. Hopefully once I get more settled into my job, my social life will work around it.
I am so glad to have a job. I thought I was going to have to go back to New Mexico. I love my family and that would have been cool. But I like it better here. I love being in Iowa. Yeah, I hate the weather and I might complain about how much I hate Iowa. But I like it :) I might not spend the rest of my life here but for now it's nice. I also would have hated leaving all my friends and my church and the life I've made here. So it's a praise that I get to stick around.
I also learned that it is only 70 days til graduation! That's exciting :) I need to start planning for Spring Banquet and other such things.
I need to get caught up on my shows...
It's snowing again. :P
What else is there possibly to say??
I love This Means War!!!! I could see it a million times :)
I thought I had more to say but alas I do not. I am just sitting here watching Grimm. Kinda.
Oh! I got to see my Meghan this last weekend. We surprised her boyfriend. It was awesome. It made my day. It was a lot of fun. I love her so much and miss her very much when she is away. I'm trying to get her to move out here. It isn't working too well but she will give in eventually. She bought me awesome shoes for my bday!! And took me to breakfast at the Machine Shed. :) I have friends that buy me things. That's why I love them :) wait what? no. I love them cuz they are awesome!
My thoughts are so random. I just kinda go on and on lol
I'm going to end this blog with a little diddy.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
Grimm is creepy,
and so are you!
(Hey, you're the one reading about my personal life like a creeper :P hehe)

Oh, BTW I have not checked anything else off of my bucket list yet. You guys should get off the computer and come help me with that :P

I worry for myself

There is something new everyday that makes me worry for my sanity. I think that it would be better for me and everyone around me if I just lived in a home. Like seriously, I break the record for doing dumb stuff. Locking my keys in my car, leaving my lights on and killing my battery, losing my keys, losing my cell phone, running out of gas, getting lost on my first day of work. It's all just stuff that happens to everybody. But all within a few weeks of each other??? I'm blond beyond belief. How have I survived 24 years?? I amaze myself. Sometimes I wonder why I don't just lock myself up in my room. I shouldn't speak either. Because the things that come out of my mouth just scare me. I don't think before I speak. What ever pops into my head comes out my mouth. Always ends badly for me. It's no wonder that I get picked on so much. I have taken up people's time and energy with the stupid things I do. How do people put up with me?? Ditzy is one thing. Than there is me. Clumsy is also another thing that you can call me. I can trip over my own feet. It's a miracle that I have never broken a bone! For real. I'm just the blondest blond I think you're going to get.
That's all for my rant for the night. I'm going to sleep.
Thank you for reading and Live long and prosper.

Best. Valentines. Ever.

I know usually this is like the worst day of the year. I hate it so much. Such a commercial holiday. Makes men go crazy. I wear all black to celebrate Single's awareness Day. Mind you, I did wear all black, but this year was different. I actually got into the Vday spirit.
My day started somewhat early. I had to fill out some paperwork for a temp agency. I went shopping for Vday gifts. I stopped in to see Lacy :) brought her goodies. Than I went to  Faith and left Sonjia goodies. Than I went to Olive Garden and left Thomas goodies. lol That made the hostesses at the front smile so I made their day. And I even left a white rose for Lindsey. The cat tried to eat it :P I got random Vday texts from my friends through out the day. I got a job! Than I went and saw the most epic movie like ever,This Means War, with Lacy. Must see. OMG! She even brought me M&Ms and a sweet little card :) Than I went to Olive Garden with Nate and had the best meal ever. Shrimp marinara pasta stuff. Than I got to bed somewhat early. Over all I think it was pretty good. I didn't get to depressed about being single. I got to see some awesome friends. And I got the best gift ever! A job! this means I get to stay in Iowa.
My God is so great! The best Valentine I could ever ask for. He does such great things for me. I could never thank Him enough. Nothing I give Him could repay Him. I think the love He has for me and the love my friends give me is what made this Valentine's day the best of my life so far. Valentine's is not just for couples. There are plenty of people who you can show love to. Vday is about love, not just romance. Remember that.

Such a thing as too much blogging?

I have been blogging a lot here lately. I have had a lot on my mind, I guess. I must say that my life here in Iowa hasn't go as I have planned. Don't get me wrong, it hasn't been all bad. I've had some great times, but there have been some bad times. I have had some struggles and I've gotten discouraged. I've had my down days. I've cried myself to sleep sometimes. I've had break downs. I'll admit that I'm scared. I don't know where my life is going to go or how to get to where I need to go. I don't know what God wants me to do. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know who to trust or who I need in my life. I don't know who needs me in their life. I don't want to waste my life away. I don't want to be waiting for something to happen. I want a job. I need something to keep me busy. Something to keep my mind from thinking so much. Thinking gets me in trouble. It never goes well when I have a lot of time to think. Because than I over analyze things. I think to much I start to panic. Just so much in my head. Sometimes it comes out to the poor soul willing to listen. Sometimes I bottle it up until I explode and go off on the poor soul willing to talk to me. Bottling up always ends bad and sometimes so does talking to people about your problems. So usually I find blogging about it so much easier. It might not make sense to the rest of you but it makes me feel better.

Crying out to God with tears in my eyes,

my pillow clenched against my chest,

wishing life could stay on it's highs,

wishing my life would just take a rest.

I only want to stop messing up

Make something important of my life

If people see me close up

They'd realize my real strife.

I need a direction

I can't see my path

Let's move on to the next section

Good time for a bubble bath

If you read this, I'm sorry

I have lots to say.

Even on a night that is starry,

I still see the grey.

Every star has a silver lining, they say

I'm waiting for the glimmer to appear

Just waiting for a sunny day,

when everything is crystal clear.

God has big plans for me, I know it's true

He has something He wants me to do.

I can't see it right now, tho.

So for now I just need love.

Mistakes and Failures

Everyone makes mistakes right? It's a natural way of life. We all have failures in our life. We all have regrets and things we want to redo.  We all mess up and do stupid things. We're human, it happens. I'm not being negative, just realistic. I'm going to mess up. I'm going to get mad, I'm going to make people mad. I'm going to get hurt, I'm going to hurt people. There are going to be awkward times, things are going to be uncomfortable. I can't be happy all the time, and I won't make people happy all the time. Things in the world aren't perfect, and people aren't perfect. Relationships are hard. Friendships take work. You can't just expect things to be good all the time. We all have our hard times. People don't always get along.
Just because I expect to fail, does not mean that I accept failure. When I fail, I strive to try harder. When I make mistakes, I learn from them and get stronger. When I mess up, I pick myself up and make things better. Our human nature wants to sin. We have to fight that nature to become more like Christ. But we sin. God is there to forgive us and love us no matter what. Even when we screw up. We just have to try and try and eventually it will get easier but sin won't go away. Life is hard. It's a struggle every day. It's only through God's grace and His power that we make it through every day.
I know I have to trust in Him and rely on Him for everything. But it's hard. I'm not the strongest Christian, I'm willing to admit. Letting God handle things is a hard thing for me to do. Prayer and trust is not my strong suit. So the closer I get to Him the better I'll be at handling my flaws. But until I try harder, I'm going to mess up. I need people to help. I need people that will point me in the right direction. People that will point me to God instead of to myself or to other people. I need friends that will stand by me and encourage me and get me on the right path. I don't want to focus my attention on people, but God puts people in your life for a reason. We as Christians have to help each other grow in Christ as a body. 
I don't like making people mad. I don't like losing friends. I don't like it when relationships go bad. But it will happen. It's something we have to deal with. We learn through this that God is the one true friend we have.

Poke. Poke Poke. Poke!!

So I never knew that Facebook poke wars could be so much fun. I have been having them a lot more here lately. I have bonded with people over them and I have made some pretty funny friend because of them. They make for loud intense times. There is always laughter involved and usually movie quotes are thrown in there as well. Some people may look at you funny but you know that they are amused as well.
I love being goofy. It is like my favorite thing ever. I'm good at being serious don't get me wrong but I love just being silly and making people laugh. It's what I do best. If I don't get a smile or a laugh out of someone, I try harder and eventually someone will be busting a gut. I like to think that is my gift in life-To be the comic relief. And I love it. I don't' have very many talents. So I accept the one skill I do have: Goofyness. I'm a good listener too usually, but hands down my gift is laughter.
I can usually get along with anyone. Because I make them laugh. I click with any kind of personality because I'm the funny one. I can make almost anyone feel better just by one stupid comment or a silly face. It's nice to know that I can do that for people. I don't always have the best advice, I don't have any money. I can't play sports or instruments. I know nothing about cars or guns. I bond with people through jokes and laughter. Laughter truly is contagious too. It is the best medicine. And it's a good workout for your abs. And sometimes its good for your sinuses lol
Any way you look at it, I love to laugh, I love to have fun, and I love making people happy. Not tooting my own horn here of course. God gave me a pretty sweet talent to use for His honor and glory. I just have to use it wisely and make sure I'm always encouraging.
My name is Shelly Powell and I'm a blog date survivor.