Shouldn't be lonely

I look at all the friends I've made over my lifetime. I have so many friends on Facebook. I look through the phone numbers I have. But how many people do I really talk to? How much effort to I take to talk to people? Do I push people away? Do I choose not to talk to people? Do I wait for people to come to me? I don't know if it's something wrong with me. That I don't answer my phone. That I don't have full inboxes. I have so many friends that I hang out with. But when I'm away from school how many of them actually talk to me. I just question the connections I've supposedly made with people. I've just lost so many people that sometimes it just seems hopeless to make friends for find a guy that will truly love me and love me forever. I've been hurt that I just get tired of people. Why is it so hard? Why do I second guess myself and people? Why do I close myself off? Why can't I trust? This thinking floods over to my spiritual life to. My relationship with God seems to be the same as with my friends. It gets old and dumb. God is not just my friend, my best friend, he is my God! My saviour! He should mean so much more to me than people. He puts people in my life. He does everything for my good. for a reason. So I really shouldn't feel lonely or empty. He fills all holes and gaps. I have my little pity party than I start to think about Him and it always makes me feel better. That's good right? He should be the center of my thoughts instead of my own feelings and wants. Because with him as my everything, he gives me what I need, want. What more could I possibly ask for?

The semester is coming to a close.

We have so many things on our  minds as college students come this time of year. Finals, saying goodbye to friends, work, snow, trying not to slip on the ice, car problems and the list goes on. We get so stressed out and tired. We become weary. It's so hard to be a college student. We like to dwell on the thoughts of going home but we have to study for exams. We just can't stay focused. We have so much work to do it's easy to have a breakdown. It's cold so our bodies ache. Everyone is getting sick. Not to downplay the hard life we lead but come on people it could be so much worse! The semester is drawing to its end. What have we accomplished?? Can we look back at these past few months and truly say that we've done our best? Can we say we served God to our highest ability? I sure can't! We're human, we fail. But we have to keep pressing on. Don't lose focus even in these past few days. We still need to do our best. We have goals to meet. Let's get them done but also let's focus on God and not forget him. While we're here and when we go home, everything do to the glory of God.