So I have basically had way to many pity parties. I don't get why I keep feeling so sorry for myself. Wah, wah! Get over it already. Everybody goes through tough times. Yeah, I have struggled with depression for a good part of my life. It's something that can be overcome, but it happens. I'm thankful for the friends that will sit there and listen to me anyway. I get in bad moods and it affects the people around me. And I'm sorry. But you guys love me anyway. And I really appreciate it. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have my friends and my family. They always have encouraging words and are always honest with me. They help lift me up when I'm down. Even when I don't want to talk they get it out of me. They know when something is wrong and they help me fix it.
Yeah, I don't have a job. I don't have a boyfriend. I don't have a plan for my life. I'm scared and feel alone. But I have a God that never leaves or forsakes me. The other night I spent over an hour just crying and calling out to Him. And it made me feel so much better. He is the best friend I have. And he helped me so much more than any of my friends could have. I need to call out to Him more and trust Him more. That's my problem. I have a mighty God that I have been neglecting. I'm not going to be happy or content if I don't have my God leading the way. I have to let him direct my life. I can't hold the reigns of my life. I have to give them over.
God gave me the friends I have to lead me to Him. And I thank God for my friends. And I thank God that He loves me and takes care of me every day.
Thanks to a certain friend for pointing me in the right direction. :) I know I'm a stubborn butt, but you always know what to say.
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